Anybody else have a list of everything they should be doing but instead they wake and do the bare minimum? Somehow this lockdown/homeschool thing is just getting me into a state where I’ve put on hold any proper plans for training and things that I wanted to do, and an exercise routine, because I feel like I’ve got to spend all my spare time with the kids. But it’s boring and ambiguous so I end up on the computer faffing, not helping them, not doing any of my stuff, and getting slowly angrier and more exasperated with myself. Anybody else struggling?

Yep. There are so many things I could and should be doing to better myself and my situation. As it is, I’m struggling to put a load of washing on. I forgot what day it was, today. Didn’t take the Little one to daycare until 11.30am when I remembered, because I though it was his day off. It’s all very well to say ‘be kind to yourself’ etc. But I don’t like being like this. It gets me down. I need to write myself a timetable or something so that I can actually feel as though I’ve accomplished something.

Yes. I feel wobbly. Like I’m just waiting for the next bit of bad news to drop. It feels like the world is falling apart all around me, but I still have to turn up to work each morning and act like everything is great, focus on really challenging work without showing the reality.. that Im distracted by press conferences, breaking news and my own mental health issues. The worse part being that I don’t even enjoy my job anymore, but obviously I like being paid so have to try. I wish I could just go somewhere for 12 months or so, until the world rights itself… I keep thinking how much more can I cope with, surely I’m about to break, but then I just keep going. My standards have fallen quite a bit in housework, chores, work, parenting.. and Ive been seriously neglecting my own health. I notice my short term memory is also terrible these days. I cant even focus on some future happiness as I’m not game to plan anything whether its catching up with a friend for coffee, an actual holiday or even just taking a few days off work. I just spend all day refreshing the same 6 or 7 websites and getting distressed over everything Covid related.

My short term memory is hopeless. I can’t remember if I’ve sent an email, or not. I booked to get an adult ADHD assessment then missed the appointment because I can’t make and execute plans 🤦♀️ . The only thing I can focus on is piano, but not on learning new pieces, just scales and finger exercises. The neighbours must hate me.

RichardParker I need to write myself a timetable or something so that I can actually feel as though I’ve accomplished something. Maybe I should do that. I think I’ve been in “this is the limbo no planning period” mode so I haven’t, but maybe if I did my expectations would change. But then I’d also get angrier when my kids played up and it didn’t get done. Damn.

Yes. I’m exactly the same. I’m also working from home which makes it worse, because then I’m just faffing around at home 24 hours a day. It’s mentally exhausting. And yes then I get disappointed in myself for not making more of my time.

Juanita Phillips tweeted a pic of her linen closet that she sorted last lockdown - my god, it’s a thing of art. all folded, fitted sheets included , with tags designating “single fitted sheet, with top sheet, 2 pillow slips included” - i mean, really. i cleaned a makeup brush. seriously. that the extent of it. and am earnestly keeping Clare Valley grape growers in business. I do what i can.

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Anybody else have a list of everything they should be doing but instead they wake and do the bare mi...