Aimless languishing

CallMeAl

Anybody else have a list of everything they should be doing but instead they wake and do the bare minimum?

Somehow this lockdown/homeschool thing is just getting me into a state where I’ve put on hold any proper plans for training and things that I wanted to do, and an exercise routine, because I feel like I’ve got to spend all my spare time with the kids. But it’s boring and ambiguous so I end up on the computer faffing, not helping them, not doing any of my stuff, and getting slowly angrier and more exasperated with myself.

Anybody else struggling?

Longdarkteatime

Describes it well unfortunately 😞

RichardParker

Yep. There are so many things I could and should be doing to better myself and my situation. As it is, I’m struggling to put a load of washing on. I forgot what day it was, today. Didn’t take the Little one to daycare until 11.30am when I remembered, because I though it was his day off.

It’s all very well to say ‘be kind to yourself’ etc. But I don’t like being like this. It gets me down. I need to write myself a timetable or something so that I can actually feel as though I’ve accomplished something.

CallMeAl

RichardParker I need to write myself a timetable or something so that I can actually feel as though I’ve accomplished something.

Maybe I should do that. I think I’ve been in “this is the limbo no planning period” mode so I haven’t, but maybe if I did my expectations would change. But then I’d also get angrier when my kids played up and it didn’t get done. Damn.

RichardParker

My short term memory is hopeless. I can’t remember if I’ve sent an email, or not. I booked to get an adult ADHD assessment then missed the appointment because I can’t make and execute plans 🤦‍♀️ . The only thing I can focus on is piano, but not on learning new pieces, just scales and finger exercises. The neighbours must hate me.

LadySybilVimes

Oh, yes. Constantly faffing. I wrote out a list last night for today because it’s getting out of hand.

wannabefree

Yep. I’m finding it so hard to get everything done but its not due to lack of time.

catbus

Yes. I’m exactly the same. I’m also working from home which makes it worse, because then I’m just faffing around at home 24 hours a day.

It’s mentally exhausting. And yes then I get disappointed in myself for not making more of my time.

RichardParker

Yes, I get frustrated with myself for arguing on the internet instead of doing All The Things.

But do I stop? No. No I don’t. What can you do? Nothing.

AnnHiggins

Juanita Phillips tweeted a pic of her linen closet that she sorted last lockdown - my god, it’s a thing of art. all folded, fitted sheets included , with tags designating “single fitted sheet, with top sheet, 2 pillow slips included” - i mean, really.

i cleaned a makeup brush. seriously. that the extent of it. and am earnestly keeping Clare Valley grape growers in business. I do what i can.

LadySybilVimes

I just rushed over to Twitter to find that picture. My God. That is next level organising. I think I’m going well when I buy some boxes from Ikea, shove them on the linen cupboard shelf and hide the sheets inside them.

DYNAR

Taking the labels off and putting them back on would shit me - it would have lasted one month at best.

I love that in the comments someone suggested sheets inside the matching pillowcase (I do it for doona covers too) and she is keen to look into that! And her spice rack. She is teasing that the towel cupboard and full pantry are similar!

SatansWoman

That is a beautiful linen cupboard. I love her even more

LadySybilVimes

I used to do the sheets inside the pillowcase but now I have the large white Ikea Skubb boxes in the linen cupboards with labels on. I could never fold my fitted sheets well enough to look good on the shelf so now I hide my shame in boxes and my linen cupboard looks tidy.

SatansWoman

But on OP, yeah, aimless languishing is a good descriptor. Feels like I’m killing time till the end of time.

I’ve told my kids the truth: One day, about 4 or 5 billion years from now the sun will expand, boil the earth’s oceans, scorch the surface then explode blowing everything to smithereens. Everything we do is long term pointless 🤷‍♀️

CallMeAl

SatansWoman

True. Maybe I should just embrace it 😛

RichardParker

It’s confronting because - all of those things you thought you’d do if you just had the time - learn another language, write a novel, be fit and toned - well, now I have the time but I’m still not doing them. It’s not that I don’t have the time - it’s because I’m lazy.

Woohoo

AnnHiggins

i’m actually more efficient when i’m completely pressed for time and have to do 8 things at once. atm i have all the time in the world and can do just 1 thing at my leisure…and yet i don’t.

CallMeAl

AnnHiggins

So true. It’s like that saying, if you want something done, ask a busy person.