I have a long history of anxiety and depression. I thought it might be nice to have a thread for those with mental health issues to be able to support each other. A few of the stranger impulses I get when anxious are buying things I don’t need and decluttering my home. At the moment I’ve been thinking of buying a cat or dog… even though I can’t afford one right now. Lockdown has put me in a dark place and I’m finding it difficult to find a bright spot. I think not having a clear end date is the hardest part.

I’m not in Victoria but can imagine going into another lockdown has increased anxiety for lots of people. Take it one day at a time or even one hour at a time when it feels overwhelming. You’ll get there.

I think very said it before, but went on anxiety meds and saw a osych just before the pandemic started. I am so very grateful for the fortuitous timing. My psych was awesome and she’s helped me let go and focus. I appreciate the small things and am able to (largely) let go of the things I can’t change. I also eat too much food and drink too much… but I could be in a much worse space.

I find if I just do one YouTube video of Yoga with Adrienne, it helps me so much- I don’t even have a mat at the moment, and can’t buy one- so it’s just me on the carpet, in my Pyjamas, amongst the mess. But just that 20 minutes makes a huge difference to my ability to cope. Not too much of a stretch to say it saved my life when I was in a circumstance-enforced lockdown when DS2 was a baby.

I’m still in a constant state of anxiety, my job is still horrible… I’ve had yet another horrible week, feeling attacked from every side. People escalating things to senior people, making me look bad, but when I look into it, there are no issues. Its just someone on a power kick at my expense. I couldn’t sleep last night, didn’t go to sleep until about midnight and then woke up a bit before 4am and had to get up in the end, just so I could do something to take my mind off things. I finally have a GP appointment on Friday, booked in a few weeks ago. I just hope I can go (vic). I hope she can prescribe something on the spot. I also found an internal 12 month secondment role that might suit me and be much less stressful. Its the same level I’m on atm.

I belong here too. Been struggling a bit. Work is hard. Some days I just want to walk right out the door. Other days I love the job. Most people I work with are fantastic, as most of the trouble makers have left - though I am still affected by how they’ve treated me. My ex manager was a cow. She was a micro manager. It didn’t matter what you did, if she was moody, she’d target someone - she’d send out group emails, or have snap group meetings, to discuss the latest issue. It’s still affecting my decision making today and she’s been gone 2 years. If you chose option A, she’d criticise you because you didn’t go with option B. If you went with option B, she’d criticise you because you didn’t choose option A. She was constantly changing processes, it was so confusing. I remember getting told off because I wasn’t following the correct process - except I was following the latest one she’d emailed out - she’d forgotten she’d just changed it. Life was much easier when I wasn’t working. I know I should be grateful because covid lockdown hasn’t affected my industry, in fact it’s thriving. Though part of me wishes I had a job where lockdown meant no work for me - I do realise so many people are struggling financially with the loss of income, and that business owners are losing so much. I know it’s a massive first world whinge on my behalf. @Annsy I hope the lockdown ends soon so you can crawl a little bit out of the dark place you’ve found yourself in. @wannabefree I hope you can get a prescription this Friday. I know I should go back on meds, but it just takes effort to make that doctor’s appointment. I have been seeing the doctor for other issues, and don’t need to be seen for a few more months (appointment is already booked). I hope to find the strength soon to make another one for the next couple of weeks.

Work is draining my will to live. Have a tricky situation happening and a co-worker driving me crazy. Its making me so angry and irrational, and its making me look bad in my new role and in front of my new boss. This person has been ruining work for me for nearly a year now, and I was so close to getting away from them, but then got dragged back into it. I dont know what to do, but a few sickies would be nice.. especially as I am actually sick. Even worse is there is no one to talk to about it all. Friends and family dont care and have no context, and I cant blab at work. Feeling unloved and sad. I wish I could quit.

I just want to scream and scream and scream till all this hurt is gone. So angry and upset. Hate that I have nobody to talk to. When things like this to and there’s no one I can trust to turn to it reminds me how alone I really am. If it wasnt for my DD I really wouldnt be here anymore.

So scream. Into a pillow - if need be - or at least vocalise in some way what you’re feeling. And put DD in a pram and go for a walk. You’re not the first to feel this kind of pain and you won’t be the last. You are the only person your DD has - she needs you to get some therapy to work through the issues.

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I’m not in Victoria but can imagine going into another lockdown has increased anxiety for lots of pe...